One called me, telling me she really needed to talk to me, about me.
"Is it something bad?" I asked.
"Well....er. I just want to meet in a public place."
"Okay, well, are we going to stay friends after this?" I said jokingly, trying to make this conversation more light.
"Not sure...I just, we need to talk."
And this is a friend I've had a good...maybe four years?
So I call another friend, asking if I did something wrong recently. Just asking, "Did I do or say something wrong to upset you guys?"
"Meg, you have to understand, we're drifting apart. We have our own lives, our own friends, we can't always be friends with you."
And this is a friend I've had since I was in middle school.
"I understand that, I really do, but did I do something wrong recently to trigger this more?"
I know them. They always pull some kind of excuse not to tell me what's wrong up front.
"Well, ya. You did, for the past year."
And she kinda went on, telling me how I over react, how I always keep to myself, and how lately it seems like I don't pay attention to them, but how I only pay attention to myself.
I can understand the "over react", because I always jokingly over react to small stuff, and she knew that, or at least I thought she did.
And the "paying attention to myself" wasn't that, at all. In the past couple weeks some good things happened to me. I earned two credits in one week, I'm graduating this June, and I was accepted at a local college in my town. I wanted to tell them about it, because I thought they'd be proud of me, that I'm finally catching up with them.
I even listened to their news as well, and I never once thought "They're hogging the spotlight!"
Mayhaps I am over reacting about this (heh, the friend might be right), but the whole "drifting apart" and how my meeting with the other friend might end our friendship kinda irritates me.
I was really upset about it today, even at work. But then I realize that a lot of middle school/high school friends dift apart eventually. I'll be twenty this year, and in college, I KNOW I'll make new friends.
I guess it's just the thought that really bugs me....